When I was growing up, I thought the only way to name a new male garment was to add “M”, and I found this a very awkward way to do it.
I had no idea what “M” meant, so I thought “the one with the M” in the middle”.
I had never used a tampon in my life, so when I went to my local health centre and asked if I could be treated as a male patient, I was met with the usual “don’t ask, don’t tell”.
I was surprised, because I didn’t know there was anything wrong with my anatomy.
I was born with no uterus, so what’s so wrong with me?
I thought I’d be a good patient.
I was also surprised to find out I was the only person in the hospital that had a penis.
I’ve been having it since I was seven.
I knew there was something wrong with it, but the only thing that made it worse was being told by doctors that it would cause complications.
So I didn, too.
I went on a month-long course of testosterone blockers.
When I was diagnosed with gonorrhoea and had my testicles removed, I went through a lot of depression and anxiety.
But I never thought I would go through that again, so it was nice to finally be able to say I was a male and have it be something I was proud of.
The first time I came out was when I was 20 and I was in my mid-20s.
It was the biggest moment of my life.
I thought, I’m a man now.
I’m not ashamed of who I am.
I feel like I’m doing well.
I’ve had a few girlfriends and one boy who is now my wife, so there’s always a chance I’ll have another.
But there’s no rush.
I’ll just keep working and making it as a man.
I’m not sure why I always had a period in my early 20s.
I wasn’t getting pregnant, so why do I have to have a period?
I’ve never had a bad period.
My periods are very small.
If I had a lot more, I might not have the period.
It’s been quite the journey, so far.
I have always felt I was different.
I am a man, but I am not happy about it.
My mother always used to tell me, “Don’t try to change yourself, just be who you are.”
I know now that she was right.
When I told her I was transgender, she was very proud of me.
I never wanted to change, and I’m happy to be who I was when my body didn’t conform to the gender I was assigned at birth.
There are so many reasons why I chose to transition.
When you’re born male, your hormones don’t change.
When your body is female, they do.
You can grow breasts and have pubic hair.
If you have female hormones, you can have vaginas.
So there are many reasons.
It’s hard to tell the difference between men and women.
It doesn’t mean that I’m more masculine or feminine than a woman.
It just means that I have more body parts that are female-specific, and that I want them.
I am happy to wear dresses or make-up, but it doesn’t change anything about my identity.
I love women.
I never wanted boys.
My brothers would tell me they wanted girls, but there were always more girls around.
They’d think I was being silly.
I just thought, there are only two boys here. I didn